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3rd day count down
Survived again the third day kahit di ako naka tanggap ng text message galing sa kanya. I was so proud of myself. But honestly, I got hurt when I read his text earlier this morning. I still find myself staring on a blank surface and think of him. :( Good thing ER was busy today and I was able to keep my mind busy for hours. I’ve got a lot of realizations today. First is that even if I tell myself that the alumni guy in ER was so handsome, my heart still says that he is not as handsome as my GA. Second, I realized that there are still other guys that are nice and gentlemen like GA but still he’s the only gentleman I want for the rest of my life. Haysss. This morning, tinawanan ko ang sarili ko kasi alam kong we both still love each other and we both know that. We both want to be together for the rest of our lives. We both wanted a family together. We were happy. I want him and he wants me. Bat pa kailangan maging complicated tong situation namin? :( I wanted to text him but he said that both of us should grow up as an individual. And nirerespeto ko siya. Ayaw ko siyang masakal. I want to see him happy even without me. Pero sa totoo lang, alam kong masasaktan ako ng sobra sobra kapag if ever man magbalikan kami at kami talaga sa huli tapos sasabihin niyang na enjoy niya ang last year niya sa college. Masasaktan ako kasi alam kong wala ako. But mas gusto ko pang ako ang masaktan kesa siya ang masaktan. :( Ka martyr noh? Hays. Sana okay siya ngayon. Sana nakakumot siya kasi malamig masyado. :(